My Soul Thirsts

Depressed. Anxious. Overjoyed. Confident. Uplifted. Sad. Encouraged. Destroyed. Delighted. Rejected. Elated. Miserable. Thankful. These are just a few of the emotions that have swirled within my very soul since Friday, October 30th, the night we first decided to look for our precious friend Joe.

I have been carefully documenting this search for our friend who's plane went down October 28th during a routine training flight not 30 minutes from home. I haven't the energy to relay you my painful details, my moments of exultation, or my moments of peace. But I will tell you this.

The Lord is moving. He brought together an incredibly diverse group of strangers all who love Joe. And what the Lord made was GOOD! Deep, new friendships were cultivated. Friendships that were desperately needed. And we are so blessed.

Matt, Nicole, Peter, Amy, Dave, James, and many many many more....they are new loves in my life.

And for the moment. I am thankful.


From Psalm 63:

1 You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.

2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.

3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.

4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.

7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.

8 I cling to you;
your right hand upholds me.


What's going on....

Hi everyone,

Well....how do we even start.
First, I think a Huge, GIANT THANK YOU is an understatement! During one of the hardest things we've ever been through, the outpouring of love shown by you has made not only us humble beyond words, but it has shaken to the core of some very "unshakable" people. They have seen God using you and have done things that are against protocol and completely unexpected. For example, the commander of the entire Naval base out here has been so moved by all of our efforts and love that he had put off Joe's status changing until ten days rather than the typical four. God has moved the hearts of many through people like you!
Those of you who went and searched, I pray your feet and body are recovering and thank you for your time, energy, efforts, sweat, blood, tears, etc, etc, etc. It was not in vain at ALL! We needed those eyes, those feet, and those hands to cover ground for a peace that it had been completed. Those of you who donated money and supplies, what can I say but WOW! Our searchers were fed daily, our planning team didn't have to cook or do dishes so we could spend our time planning instead and did I mention how good the food has been? We were so thankful for the plethora of water! It wasn't a great joy to carry it in our backpacks up and down hills and dunes, but goodness it was fantastic when the load was lightened and our bodies hydrated. Your money....can you believe we've had almost $4, 000 donated to our search? PRAISE GOD!!!! We will be sending out a detailed list of exactly where the money went and how much. Just a rough list would include fixed wing airplane fuel, helicopter rental, gas for our fearless leaders' way home, boat gas, four wheeler gas (the gas companies I'm sure loved us), and we'll be making a donation to Texas Equusearch and other various areas. Then, our networkers and prayer warriors. We couldn't and wouldn't have had the endurance, hope, manpower, peace, and community closeness without you. I beg of you not to stop the prayers or the getting the word out.
The body of Christ has many parts and it was awe-inspiring to be witness to the body working as one. I will NEVER doubt the power of our almighty and how He has His body move. I feel so humbled that I was on this end seeing it all coming together. It was a taste of heaven and my eagerness to be there just multiplied tremendously!
As for where we are now. We have searched all that we were allowed (included the entire coastline of St. Joe's island (in 100 yards of the dunes), the south end of Matagorda island, the entire coast of Port Aransas down through Mustang island and the marshy areas on the bay side). Basically, there was very little land not searched thoroughly in the entire coastal area. As you may know, we have not found Joe. However, now we know that at least we've looked! We're not done either! We are praying about the Lord's direction for our next steps and have taken a sabbath to rest today. We plan on sending a plane out when this storm passes to all of the coastlines again. We are going to take a four by four (or two) all the way down south through the National Seashore with binoculars to search. Who knows, maybe a marshy area will unveiled by the tides going down.
This has been the hardest day of all! We are faced with the very real thought of not getting to see Joe and it is a pretty horrible feeling. We're hating that his family has no more answers than they did a week ago. We're so sad that instead of his fiance planning her wedding, she is probably going to be attending a Navy memorial service instead. His son, ...can't even go there right now.
I feel like the Lord keeps laying 2 Corinthians 4:6-9 on my heart: For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness", made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
This is a reminder to me of God's promise that Joe is in His hands. God's ways, though we may not understand them, are not ours. The lives that have been changed during this would only make Joe proud! Joe walked that verse and it would be futile for us not to acknowledge that!
We have not lost hope of not only finding Joe, but finding Joe alive. The Navy has changed his status to deceased as of yesterday and will hold a memorial service. There is nothing we can do about this. Joe's mom and Joe's fiance said it best, who leaves the courtroom before the trial is over? No one. There is no evidence either way of Joe. God gave us a spirit of expectation to witness something miraculous and we will wait to see that revealed. No mother, father, brother, beloved, child, family member, or friend should be left on such a plateau and we pray that God frees us of that!
A beautiful family has been born out of this and will grow stronger as the days and months pass.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! What all you've done is not in vain. Someone of you may be saying, "I didn't do anything", but the fact that I could write to you means that you have done something in my or my family's life that lets me know you have been near.

Here is the blog that we've created, please keep checking it as it will be updated often. http://findjoehouston.blogspot.com/

Here are a few websites that portrayed your efforts:
http://www.kristv.com/news/volunteers-continue-searching-for-missing-navy-pilot/
http://www.caller.com/news/2009/nov/04/volunteers-search-for-missing-navy-pilot/
http://www.caller.com/news/2009/nov/05/volunteers-officials-continue-search-for-missing/
http://www.kristv.com/news/volunteers-search-for-missing-navy-pilot/
http://www.kztv10.com/news/blog-setup-for-missing-navy-pilot/

The sun always comes up in the morning and we rest in that promise!
Yours,
Tawny and Nick
Nathan and Jade
Matt and Nicole
Dave and Amy
Peter
and many others

Updated Info on the Search for JOE!!

The searchers were able to cover 8sq miles of San Jose Island with 25 volunteers today. The island is 23 miles long. They designated search areas with flags and coordinated search groups and all went smoothly.

We desperately need more people and boats. The ferry only drops people off at one place. Therefore, everytime the searchers are dropped off they are having to go over the same area that has already been searched. We need boats to be able to take people to different points on the island. We do have one 18ft shallow water boat owned by Jeff that will be here at 3PM. We need boat captains to operate commercial boats.

Tomorrow (11-05-09) we have kayakers that are going to cover marshy area. There are at least 2 so far. They are starting at 7:30AM. We have access to more kayaks. If you are an experienced kayaker and would like to help, please get in touch with us.

There will also be at least 5 people on mountain bikes. This enables them to go further and faster up the beach. We need more mountain bikers. If you are coming out and have one, please bring it. Street bikes can't make it over the terrain. It must be a mountain bike.

We had someone contact us with a search dog who is going to be out tomorrow.

There will also be 2 helicopters flying in from Houston. They will be leaving from Corpus Christi Internationl Airport to start their search. They are each taking 2-3 people with them to be lookouts. The pilots names and Brent and Dominic and we are so grateful for their services! One is doing this for free and the other one is negotiating a price with the helicopter's owner.

There is also a fixed wing aircraft flown by a volunteer marine luetenant that will be covering San Jose and Matagorda Island. Two volunteers are needed to fly with him and serve as look outs. They need to have good eye sight and observant.

Equusearch is also mobilizing their resources and volunteers tomorrow.

About 3/4 of the island is owned by Bass. We need them to give us permission to search the property. Please pray that we get in contact with someone from Bass asap. This is of utmost importance.

Car pooling or just giving rides is definitely appreciated. We have volunteers already that are getting here even without their own vehicles. In particular we are looking for someone to drive to the West Side of Corpus Christi by Sams Club to transport a volunteer to and from Fishermans Wharf for the 7:30am drop off.

If you're not able to come in person to search but would like to contribute, we are in need of money. There are resources to be paid for and the funds so far are low. You can contact me for the mailing address for checks and money orders to be sent to or you can send money via PayPal to
nhimitrust@yahoo.com

We have set up a blog so people can easily access all the updated info.
http://www.findjoehouston.blogspot.com/

Again, please contact us if you want more info or to sign up for the search. Thanks for all your efforts!
Amy Warner 361-334-6703 Volunteer sign up and general information
Tawny Novosad 361-876-8969 Food and supply coordinator
Nicole Lamberti 973-477-8051 Search planning and resources (ie boats, aircraft, search dogs)

Top priority is access to Bass property, boats, and funds. Please pray for all these to be provided and if you can help, please contact us.

Prayer

I just copied this from my pastors blog:
Most of you know at this point that a T-34 went down in the water yesterday afternoon and that the two pilots are missing. It has also become public knowledge that one of the pilots is a Creeker - Joe Houston.

Tonight (Thursday) we will gather at 7:30 at the building to pray for our friend and his family - and for all our military/and other families who are in pain. If you can only come for a little while, that's OK.

It's open to anyone and we will have childcare.
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Please be in prayer for Joe's family, his beautiful fiance, and all of his loved ones who are anxiously awaiting any news.

They were the best of times

I found some old photographs from high school today. You wouldn't believe the sick feeling I had when I discovered many of them were damaged from heat and neglect. How frustrating that we were graduated right before the digital revolution and whilst digital cameras were around of course, they weren't the affordable type that are available to us today. How life would have been different back then had I known then the possibilities that the digital world held. :)

All the same, I had such a wonderful time going through the pictures and remembering good times with old friends. Special memories lay nestled in my heart and I just become so overjoyed at the gift of reminiscence that the Lord provides us with. Just being able to think back on those happy times, those difficult times, those awkward years of bad hair and insecurities that weren't spoken of...that just makes me so happy.

I look at the faces of my peers and see them on Facebook now...I see where they have come in life and I just am excited to see the gifts and talents that they have been given being used in many powerful ways. Teachers, writers, mom's, dad's, artists, business folk, the stories are endless. It just reaffirms my faith that we are all born with purpose and given the opportunity to change the world...even in the smallest measurement.

Anyways, I'm going to bed now, I just wanted to share with you all the joy I feel when I see my schoolmates living life in full and wonderful ways. Even through our painful moments, our times of depression, grief, or frustration, we are all with purpose, and we are never alone.

Goodnight!

Sail the Sea, or Sail the Sky

Obviously my appreciation for children's literature is splashed across the screen more often than you care to read. But there is just something about the memories I have of my childhood that brings outbursts of delight to my heart. I often remember laying under my desk, the very desk I sit at now, and reading stories that lifted me high into the sky on a ship that sailed through the cotton candy clouds of my imagination. When I first read the story of Wynken, Blynken and Nod (a poem by Eugene Fields) I was 8 years old. I stared out my bedroom window into the sky, just waiting to see a wooden shoe float by. Stories like that are so explosive to my psyche and the colors and songs and even the very scent of the tale are magnified in my head. I can cheerfully go on and on about children's books and poems that affected the days of my youth.

It's a joy to have pages come alive to me. One set of books I owned were a set of children's Bible stories that focused on a young girl who would find herself in "Bibleland" involved in the real story of
Adam and Eve or Noah and the Ark, or Jesus and his ministry. I loved those
books because the scriptures came alive to me. And at the end of each book there was a small limerick that stated "Reading is the key to take you where you want to be" and I held that close to my heart, along with the verses that came alive for me, and the poems and stories that allowed me to swim with dolphins and fly to the moon.

One of my favorite stories from my youth (and truly, I must say this of all my childhood loves) is the book "Where the Wild Things Are". The idea of sailing across the sea to an island of wild beasts who
I could rule and tame and love was so magical. When I saw the movie preview for the book, I nearly knocked over my chair, it looked so gorgeous...just as I imagined. Often I hate movies for ruining the ideas in my head of certain stories and books, but this movie just looked so magical! Well, my friend Cole Abaius wrote this lovely article on his take of the movie and I just have to share it
with you. He is one of my favorite writers, but I might be biased because he's been on my list of favorite people since my awkward teenage years.

Obviously, when I see the movie this weekend I will give you all my personal insight on the film. As a general rule, if I absolutely love something, only mush comes out of my mouth. And if I detest something, only garbled grunts and pouts come out. So really, my take on such things are sort of moot. I never make any sense.

I must say that the idea of sharing these stories with my Wesley and
introducing him to the tales of my youth brightens my day considerably. Even when surrounded by despair in this life, there are always the places tucked away in our mind that we can run to.
Wherever that place is to you, be it Narnia, Middle-Earth, a tree-house inhabited by a certain family of bears, you can always find a sort of joy that clouds out all the rest.

Whenever I see my son laying on his tummy with his trains, or horses or dinosaurs and talking to them in his sweet, innocent toddler babble, I am overwhelmed by such a happiness and I have to go lay on my tummy by him and play all over again. Those are the moments to give thanks for.

To shout it really.

A Poem by Eugene Fields:
Wynken, Blynken, and Nod one night
Sailed off in a wooden shoe--
Sailed on a river of crystal light,
Into a sea of dew.
"Where are you going, and what do you wish?"
The old moon asked the three.
"We have come to fish for the herring fish
That live in this beautiful sea;
Nets of silver and gold have we!"
Said Wynken, Blynken, And Nod.

The old moon laughed and sang a song,
As they rocked in the wooden shoe,
And the wind that sped them all night long
Ruffled the waves of dew.
The little stars were the herring fish
That lived in that beautiful sea--
"Now cast your nets wherever you wish--
Never afeard are we";
So cried the stars to the fishermen three:
Wynken, Blynken, And Nod.

All night long their nets they threw
To the stars in the twinkling foam--
Then down from the skies came the wooden shoe,
Bringing the fishermen home;
'T was all so pretty a sail it seemed
As if it could not be,
And some folks thought 't was a dream they 'd dreamed
Of sailing that beautiful sea--
But I shall name you the fishermen three:
Wynken, Blynken, And Nod.

Wynken and Blynken are two little eyes,
And Nod is a little head,
And the wooden shoe that sailed the skies
Is a wee one's trundle-bed.
So shut your eyes while mother sings
Of wonderful sights that be,
And you shall see the beautiful things
As you rock in the misty sea,
Where the old shoe rocked the fishermen three:
Wynken, Blynken, And Nod.

Where to begin...

Where do I even begin?

Since I last wrote on here quite a few things have come and gone.
  • Let's start with Nathan getting sick. He is almost all better now, don't get me wrong. But whenever my sweetie pie isn't feeling well, it just makes the equillibrium of our house go berserk. I hate it when he's not up to snuff. I am so thankful he is feeling so much better.
  • Then this moves on to number two. I got rear-ended by a very impressive Ford truck. Yep. My poor Corolla got a beating. The good news is that since Nathan wasn't feeling well, he stayed home from valet, which made me leave Wesley home with him while I ran a few errands, which means that Wesley was NOT in the car with me, which makes me a very happy mama. Otherwise I might have lost it.
  • I stayed at the hospital for a good portion of today waiting for my friend to have her beautiful baby! It was a great joy to be a part of that. What incredible parents they will be!
  • I didn't get to go see my friend Jackie for her baby shower on Sunday. :( That made me quite sad, but I hopefully will be able to see her in a few weeks when I drive to Oklahoma to see my Heather!
  • Jason H. broke his clavicle. Yea, that has nothing to do with me, but i've never known anyone to break that particular bone. Bummer.
  • Our church had Serving Sunday...and as always, it's awesome to see our families go out into the community to love people and give their time and energy to impact the world. Awesome!
  • I've been reading about the Galapagos Islands. Yea, that's not anything too extraordinary, but I really enjoy the mysteriousness of that archipelago. What an incredible experience it would be to travel there. Maybe I'll stop in Bogota and visit my cousin on the way :)
  • I will probably go to Vietnam before I go to South America. Never quite thought that I would say that, but you go where you're sent, right?
  • I am making Wesley a Max costume for Halloween (Where the Wild Things Are)
  • We made stew this weekend. Another sign that the holidays are quickly approaching.

You know what, this is going to probably go down as one of the lamest updates on the planet. Because it's 1:24 in the morning and I am exhausted.

So I will bid you adieu and leave you with this:
“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art, like the universe itself (for God did not need to create). It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.” --C.S. Lewis



 

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